Also, i’m starting to question my sexual preference.

I can’t deal with females, and i can’t deal with guys.

I guess i’m back in the middle. 

I have nowhere else to turn to, so i guess this will have to do. 

I’ve had it with people treating me like i don’t understand situations or like i’m fucking stupid. I’m sick of having the people i’m closest to say i’ve gone soft because of the shit i’m putting up with. I wouldn’t have put up with this a few years ago and i don’t understand why i am now but i am. I’m so sick of the fights and i’m so sick of feeling like i’m backed into a fucking corner. I don’t have a choice and i never did. And i let people in, and they just go ahead and do the same things the people in my life are already doing. I don’t understand where i went wrong or where i decided that i wasn’t going to let things bother me. But they do. And now i’m snapping and the only thing i can think of is leaving. I’m so close to saying fuck everyone and uprooting my life. I can’t handle seeing you be oh so friendly with people and seeing you tweet things like you’re “Involved” with the people you’re tweeting about. It’s not fair to me. This whole situation isn’t fair. i’m not the best person, and i’m not the easiest person, But there is line and it’s starting to be crossed. and then i feel like the bad guy for getting pissed over the shit. But i shouldn’t. you would feel the same way if i did that shit to someone. So idk why i would even start to feel bad. Not only am i drifting away from one of my good friends now i have another one barely talking to me. Like don’t fucking talk to me like i don’t understand your fucking situation. I’m pretty fucking sure i understand more than anyone, and i understand that she is a fucking bitch, but i have done NOTHING fucking to you, don’t fucking take it out on me. I’m trying to be there for you but you’re pushing me away.

Actually.

Everyone is pushing me away.

Fuck it. I’m ok with it. 

Try not to miss me when i’m gone.